Words people carried until they left them here.

To Scott

Betrayal Hurts

You know what's strange? I keep rehearsing what I'd say to you, and it never comes out clean. So here it is, messy. I trusted you with things I don't hand out easily. My wors...

I deserved an apology

I spent years trying to understand why you did it. I do not need to understand anymore. I deserved an apology, and I deserved better.

To Vicki

Why'd you leave me?

I loved you, i love, you, why'd you leave me?

To Grandma

I love you

Oh how I truly miss you and long to see you...

To Dennis

I love you

I will always love you and cherish you!!

To Greg

The last time I saw you

Dear Greg, You were my best friend, the last time I saw you.

To Dad

I had one more question

I thought there would be more time. I still have one question I keep asking in my head, and nobody else would know the answer.

To J

You were home for a while

I do not want you back. I just miss the version of me that felt safe beside you.

To Mom

I needed you to notice

I was not asking for much. I just wanted you to notice that I was struggling before I had to become good at hiding it.

To Sam

I still laugh at our jokes

Sometimes one of our old jokes pops into my head and I laugh out loud. Then it hurts because you are the only person who would understand why it was funny.

To Little me

You were not too much

You were not too loud, too sensitive, too needy, or too difficult. You were a child asking to be loved properly.

To Future me

Please remember this version of us

I hope you remember how hard this season was and how close we came to giving up. I hope you are proud that we kept going.

To Me

I forgive you for surviving

You did what you knew how to do. It was messy, but you made it through.

I still know your birthday

I still know your birthday. I still notice the date every year. I never say anything.

To The old house

To the house we left

I still dream about your hallway. In the dream, everything is exactly where we left it.

To A

I hope someone is gentle with you

I hope someone is patient with your quiet days. I hope they notice when you need space and when you need to be held. I hope they are gentle with the parts of you that I once k...

You do not get to rewrite it

You tell the story like I was dramatic and you were confused. That is not what happened. You knew exactly what you were doing, and I am done carrying the version that protects...

To Grandpa

The chair is still yours

Nobody sits in your chair at family gatherings. We never made a rule about it. We just know.