i hope you know what are you doing to mee
dear dad
i love you ,you were the first man i loved, you were the first man i felt safe with, you were the first man i want to marry and you were the first man i started to hate . i love you but i hate the way you doubt me i hate the way you get angry at me ,i hate you love you other kids more than me i hate it. as long as i remember you were the first person who told me that "i trust you the most" but i didn't know that, to maintain your trust i need to lock my freedom i didn't know to keep your trust i need to suffocate myself. i hope you should have trusted me with all your faith . and somehow now it's my fault to break that trust. now i just want to tell you how much you are meant to me i make fake talk about how good you are to me so that other doesn't doubt you a bit ik ik you are good but is it true? yes you were good to me not anymore you think just coming to me and asking am i studying is care? what do you giving me money after i begged you on my knee is love ? at some point of your life it is but have you ever asked to me what is love? if you had asked me what is love i would probably say " for me love from you is like dancing randomly of those funny song ,for me if you have cooked something even if it's burn even if you had brought me some water i would count it as love. if you had never seen me with those disappointing eyes which told me i was better dead . probably when you hadn't tell mummy about something which i want to be our little secret and over all if you had done none of that it was okay but telling me that not aborting me and keeping me was your decision and if i am alive it's because you . that day i didn't know weather you are telling me that you are happy to have me or regretting to have me. but it was all clear when i looked into your eyes. those same eyes which used to look at me with joy were now looking at me with disappointment . i am sorry i am really to be born but i was really sorry for today it's like the very first time you had hurt me physically . Dad i love you i hope you get to know how much i love you
i love you ,you were the first man i loved, you were the first man i felt safe with, you were the first man i want to marry and you were the first man i started to hate . i love you but i hate the way you doubt me i hate the way you get angry at me ,i hate you love you other kids more than me i hate it. as long as i remember you were the first person who told me that "i trust you the most" but i didn't know that, to maintain your trust i need to lock my freedom i didn't know to keep your trust i need to suffocate myself. i hope you should have trusted me with all your faith . and somehow now it's my fault to break that trust. now i just want to tell you how much you are meant to me i make fake talk about how good you are to me so that other doesn't doubt you a bit ik ik you are good but is it true? yes you were good to me not anymore you think just coming to me and asking am i studying is care? what do you giving me money after i begged you on my knee is love ? at some point of your life it is but have you ever asked to me what is love? if you had asked me what is love i would probably say " for me love from you is like dancing randomly of those funny song ,for me if you have cooked something even if it's burn even if you had brought me some water i would count it as love. if you had never seen me with those disappointing eyes which told me i was better dead . probably when you hadn't tell mummy about something which i want to be our little secret and over all if you had done none of that it was okay but telling me that not aborting me and keeping me was your decision and if i am alive it's because you . that day i didn't know weather you are telling me that you are happy to have me or regretting to have me. but it was all clear when i looked into your eyes. those same eyes which used to look at me with joy were now looking at me with disappointment . i am sorry i am really to be born but i was really sorry for today it's like the very first time you had hurt me physically . Dad i love you i hope you get to know how much i love you
