things i wish you knew

dear my ex bsf, this is so random but I jst wanted to clear some things up because iv has this on my mind for a rlllyyy long time and I jst think I shld say this since im graduating soon and yk. But like I wanted to talk abt like everything that happened between us. Like im sure u probs dont even care abt it anymore like it’s been years since u clearly moved on but ima b honest sometimes it rlly makes me sad. Like im not rlly sure what exactly happened between us like I remember we were soo close like u were genuinely my best friend like a sister, like I never saw u as like jst a friend like u were truly my best friend and ig u can say we got into that whole fight over that guy thing and it makes me feel so stupid because how did we loose such an amazing friendship over a guy who wasn’t even worth one bit of it? Like sometimes I look at our old photos or like remember our sleepovers and it truly jst makes me feel sooo sad bec I never thought I would ever stop becoming friends w u bec u meant everything to me. Like over the yrs iv noticed u have so many friends and ur rlly close w other ppl and stuff and thats absolutely okay like im not saying dont be or anything but it honestly sometimes feels like a stab in the back because how can u go from being so close w me to being all this close w others yk? And yeah ill b honest it hurts to see u having so much fun w these new bsfs while im yearning over our lost friendship. And ik its so cringe and crazy to say all this but I genuinely mean it like sometimes it makes me wonder if our friendship was even significant to u at all considering how u never reached out and never asked me to hang or anything after again its like it all came to a full stop on a random Wednesday. Im not sure whether its because u genuinely didnt wanna b friends w me or found me wierd or if I did something wrong and if I did I wld love to know but I jst rlly wish that things were diff and we cld be the same type of friends like we were as kids because as I said u were my bestest friend I ever had and id be lying if I said I ever found the same connection again. I hope maybe in another life u were my best friend again and that we wld never ever be separated because u were a sister to me. Im sorry if this is all so wierd but this is the truth.