I won’t find love again

Those times we spent together were the best moments of my life. You were my daily routine. I just wish you never broke up with me. All I can hope is you come back, even though we still are “friends” that is not enough for me. You notice I wear the hoodie we used to share, that blue hoodie… the one we used to chew the draw strings on.. well I still do. I cry about you every night. I am so scared of you hating me… Your birthday is coming up soon, might get you a gift.. I already had some ready when we were dating. I threw them out.
I’ve changed, please love me again.