Words I want to say but can't say

To Yoongi.
Hi!! It's so awkward to write a letter like this.
Actually, i'm afraid you'll see it.
But I'll be brave!!
I think there are so many things I feel sorry for.
I'm so sorry that I told my friend about the story we shared.
I just wanted to brag about talking to you because I love you so much.
I'm sorry for making you apologize to me every day.
I'm sorry for not being honest every day.
I'm sorry that I couldn't express my affection after saying I like you first.
It was because it was awkward.
I regret it so much.
I haven't stopped thinking about that day and you even for a single day.
You may not.
When I saw you at my brother's graduation ceremony,
I was thinking about whether to talk to you or not,
but I just didn't walk up to you
I still regret it so much.
I will definitely talk to you the next time I meet you!
I still love you so much and I miss you.
I'll see you someday.
I'll wait forever