I won't wait anymore

Heyy kimi, it's been a year since we've talked ig well more than a year since we broke up ig. Well I've been waiting all this time for you even tho I didn't accept it ig. Well now ig I've changed a lot and my life is completely different. When we broke up i thought I had lost everything in life and lost the will to live but I just kept going and Im trying to achieve a lot now I've even got my own buiseness and company now lol , Craazyyyy right 😂? Can't believe I could do all this. And well now my personality is quite different too you wouldn't even look at my face if we met now lol. I've done a lot of mistakes too in the last year but life feels like I have a lot more to explore and I won't give up on anything anymore. Well it took more than a year but I've started to have feelings for other girls too now and I think I can love someone new now too. I still think about you atleast one time a day , but the truth is I've forgotten your face , your voice , and you're characteristics well i had a memory loss issue from the trauma of our breakup so I can't do anything about it ig. And well I do remember your one baby pic of you from 1st grade or something earing an uniform and standing that won't go from my mind idk why. Well At the end I did lie to you , I had to , I saw how much you were hurting and that you weren't happy even after I gave you every inch of my time and efforts so I lied so that you could hate me and let me go easily . Well I sometimes still miss you a lot , but ig I'll move on NO I will move on I have so much to achieve. You're probably in college now and have new friends or a new guy idk lol. Well even tho it hurt a lot I never wish that we never met , you leaving taught me a lot kimi. And Ik you've doubted my love but I Truly , honestly , completely, utterly and was helplessly in love with you and not just your pretty face , your body , your soul , your small imperfections you told me I loved it all with my whole heart and soul i swear on everything . I've loved you kimi with my everything and there is nothing i wouldn't have done for you even if it meant giving up my life for you. And i don't regret loving you cause i wouldn't be the person I am today if I hadn't loved you that much and hadn't lost you. So welcome ig . And I won't feel sorry for you or ever say sorry to you cause i suffered that much, i lost weight , couldn't do anything and I was a living corpse, soo im glad in a way now that I'm moving on too. Well then Goodbye forever the girl who loved peonies. Goodbye kimiko